23:37

The thought of just ending it all here,
Right now,
Came more often lately.

Funny isn't it?

Sometimes I think that it's overly dramatic,
Ya know,
To get hit by a car intentionally,
To drown,
To jump off a building,
To shoot myself,
Or even just down lots of pills,
Just so I could be at everyone's attention,
To get everyone's sympathy.

But that just makes it even sadder than it already is.

I don't want to burden people around me,
I don't want to make people around me sad,
But have they thought that maybe...
I would be sad if they something?

Hahahaha

Of course they would.
People around me are good people.

I'm the lunatic,
Crazy bitch without a heart to share 🤣

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