You always be my first love ~

Dear Diary,

You must be wondering what I'm going to write , right ?
Well it's about the first group that made me fall in love with K-pop .
SHINee .

I was watching some old videos of them ,
then this feeling that I felt in my heart ,
as if someone punching it like a punch bag .

All the memories back in 2010 came back to me .
I can't believe how I used to biased them so much .
But now ,
it's different .
For some reason I want that feeling back .

But I can't seem to make it come back and stay .
It hurts me so much .
As if I betrayed them .
I once promise that I will forever be a Shawol .
Which I still am .
But not like in the old days .

I don't want to blame them or the group that I am currently biased .
Maybe that's just how life works .

One time you like them like how you like your life .
The next time you would just like them like a normal fan .

But , even though I'm not up-to-date about them like I used too .
They still had this effect on me .
The effect that made me fall in love with them on the first place .

This two group which you would already know the other one .
Their are the ones that can have this effects on me .
ONLY them .

Only a Kpop fan would know what I'm saying right now .

LOVE YOU ALWAYS .

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