Mixture feelings

Dear Diary ,

Assalamualaikum and Annyeonghaseyo !
I haven't got the chance to update my lovely bloggie .
Mianhamnida .
I have been busy with my life especially school life .

A lot of events happened for the past week .
Both bad and good events .
Changes also included .
One of my besties have ' hijrah ' .
Which is good for her .
Just that , it's kinda awkward between us now . 
It's been tough on her as some of her old friends and him bashed her for it .
I don't understand ?
It's not like she commit a sin or anything , right ?
She's just following Allah's path . 
That's all .
Aigoo ...
But , between us , 
we'll get used to the changes , I know we will .

Next ,
my other friend .
I actually don't know what made us became more distance .
Is it because of him ?
I hope not .
She's seldom smiled to me like she used to be .
I was kinda upset when she smiled more to other people instead of me .
It's like I was just a nobody .
Like I was just standing in her way or something .
I didn't mind if she wanted to talk to her friends ,
but at least show some emotion to me too .
It's like I don't know you anymore .
I'm sorry if I didn't talk to you anymore .
It's awkward ..

FILISTIC ...
A lot of things happened .
We canceled on joining the Sony's K-Pop competition .
Hyunnie will not be joining us anymore instead she would just support us in the back .
I meant that she will not participate in any of our activities .
Truthfully said ,
I was kinda disappointed .
But in the end , I accept it .
At least she's got a good reason to do so , right ?
From 7 > 5 > 4 now 3 .
I miss the old days . 
When we were just having fun with each others company .

Also , 
this would be the 2 months that I cried the most .
Mostly tension I guess ?
I cried for my family , my friends , myself , my life .
I hope Allah have something great for me in the future .
I really don't want to experience the ache that I felt in my heart .
It hurts soo much !
It's like someone squeezing it really hard that I have a hard time breathing .
That's how it felt .
and , I don't want either of my love ones to feel it .

GIVE ME STRENGTH TO GO THROUGH THIS .

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