Uncomfortable

Dear Diary ,

Assalamualaikum and Annyeonghaseyo .
Lately ,
a lot of rather unexpected events happened to me .
Such as two guys confessed to me that they liked me .
Truthfully saying ,
it burdens me .

The reason is because ,
the first guy is someone I just acknowledge his existence .
He popped the question on the first day we met face-to-face after the little chat .
I was in consideration ,
but now I know that I'm not going to accept him .
I just don't think it would work between us .
The more he texts me ,
the more uncomfortable I be .
And I don't like when people makes me uncomfortable .
I just can't hang around them .

As for the second guy .
He actually is a friend that I've known for almost 2 years .
I kinda of known his weird actions since last year .
His actions , too , makes me uncomfortable .
I once told him to stop doing it as it makes me uncomfortable around him .
He stopped .
But this year it started again .
Just few hours ago after the little feast together with the other students / friends of mine .
He said that he liked me for a long time .
Until know ,
it makes me uncomfortable just thinking about it .
I texted him saying that I didn't felt the same way .
But he said that it's okay .
As long as I'm happy ,
He's happy .
He felt relieved that he could tell his feelings .
Also , he said that I would be the last girl that he would like .

SERIOUSLY ?!
What is up with this guy .

Up until there ,
I made up my mind ...

I'M SO NOT GONNA DATE UNTIL SPM IS OVER OR UNTIL I ENTERED UNIVERSITY .

The second reason ,
I don't want to betrayed my parents words .
They won't let me date until I finished studying .
Before this happened ,
I was going to push that aside and maybe try my luck on dating .
But now ,
I regretted it .
I don't want to date .
If I could I only want to date my bias .
Dongwoo Oppa !
Sehun Oppa !
Luhan Oppa! 
Onew Oppa !

I seriously hate people that makes me uncomfortable .
I hate it !
So guys ,
please stop liking me and search for other girls ,
other than me .
I felt pity .

JUST .... PLEASE STOP .

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