Again & Again

Dear Diary ,

Assalamualaikum & Annyeonghaseyo .
AGAIN .
AGAIN .
AGAIN .
AGAIN.
AND AGAIN !
 
I was just asking for your permission nothing much !
You don't need to burst into anger like that .
Yes I know ,
you're low in financial right .
YES I KNOW !
 
But , I didn't ask for pocket money or whatsoever .
If you still want to give ,
you don't have to give a big amount of it .
Just for the fares is enough .
 
I wanted to buy the album with my own money that I collected .
I didn't ask for you to buy it for me .
I don't want to burden you with my personal needs .
It's last thing I would do .
 
Why do you have to make me feel even more guilty that I already am with telling me that you didn't even have money to buy lunch ?!
That shocked for sure and ADDED the guilt too .
You just made me feel like I was loading my burden onto both of you .
You made me feel like I'm a useless person .
You made me feel that I was making the situation even worse .
You made me feel that I won't be able to help you at all .
 
I'm upset .
I'm sorry ....

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