I'm Sorry

Dear Diary ,

Assalamualaikum & Annyeonghaseyo .

This would be my second update for today .

Woot ! Woot !

I hope my updates would be posted often starting today .

On this school holiday at least .

It's fortunate that my blog did not get suspended from not updating for too long .

>///<

 

Today ,

I planned on going out with Hyunmin .

You know teenagers habit on a school holiday .

But , it did not go as planned as my parents do not allowed me to go .

I will be fine with their decision if they tell me their answer directly but they didn't .

Last night ,

 every time I ask , they would either fell into silence or change the topic .

 

Then ,

I waited until tomorrow morning ,

if my mother wakes me up then she would have given her permission for me to go but no ,

they just left to work .

Without even telling me .

I must say ,

that did tick me off a little .

Then my mother called to check on us as usual ,

I answered it with a low tone .

She assumed that I was upset but I deny it .

It was true .

I wasn't mad at her or anything ,

it was my stomach that was aching due to my monthly 'friend' visiting me .

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Girl's matter .

 

Then she explained it to me ,

" It's not that me and your dad won't let you go out .

It's just that , he didn't have the money to give you as a pocket money."

I was stunned and said ,

"I didn't ask for money though ".

Then , she replied ,

"Yes I know , but it's a must for your dad and I ".

 

I don't know what got to me ,

I just wanted to weep right there and then .

It just aches my heart hearing my mother said that .

I felt guilty .

 

I cried but after I ended the phone conversation .

I felt sorry for them .

I felt like I was selfish .

 

I am sorry Mama & Baba ;(