Memories of 2013

Dear Diary,

Assalamualaikum & Annyeonghaseyo .

It finally came to me to realize that I've been posting entries onto this blog for 3 years .

I've started on the year of 2011 and now it is the last day of the 365 days of the year 2013 .

As anyone would felt at the moment ,

time flew by so quickly without knowing .

It felt like only yesterday that I was trying to adapt to my new status as a high school student .

It felt like only yesterday I met my friends who became a huge part in my life.

It felt like on yesterday my life as a kid ends .

But now ,

I've came to an age where I was considered mature and wise enough to make my own decisions .

Decisions which was once made by my parents.

Decisions that was suitable for an adult to decide .

Decisions that a kid's opinion was not utterly important .

Decisions that involves people's feelings , trust , hope and life .

Decisions that could either be a good or bad output .

Decisions that requires sacrifice.

This year left a lot of memories and even wounds .

Some of the wounds later left a scar .

This year's highlight would totally be my Senior Year .

Ya Allah ,

My eyes are welling up with tears already !

This year is when I faced the scariest exam of a teenagers life .

SPM .

But , Alhamdulillah .

I made through the examination without turning into a disorder person .

Wow !

Now , I'm trembling thinking about my upcoming results .

Great...

A lot happened this year that I didn't know where to start .

My relationship with my friends ,

all have ups and downs .

But I'm glad we got through it , mostly .

Some challenges occur that once made me wanted to give up .

But , luckily I stayed strong ,

at least to me .

I'll just be frank .

Hyunnie .

It's been a while - NO ! scratch that! 

It's been a LONG time since we met each other not to mention talking with each other .

I felt as if our friendship is falling apart which I can bravely say ,

it is .

We've been apart for so long ,

along with not hanging out often like we used to from the past year .

Every time we met ,

the atmosphere will become awkward as if we just got to know each other .

I missed you , sincerely .

You're not the same person like I first know you .

I know !

People change as they age ,

especially us .

We've grown from teenagers to an adult .

I know people won't stay the same forever .

From the way I see it ,

you become more sensitive and distant from my point of view .

It is not entirely your fault ,

I'm also at fault too .

For not spending more time with you at school or after school .

The reason is DEFINITELY not because I don't want to .

Just know that .

Even if you hate me to the guts now ,

I will always remember the Hyunnie I love and will always love, ;')

Hyena .

My tall , diva-ish , annoying , adorable , lovely maknae .

Just know , 

that you were , is and will always be my maknae .

I've been hurting you alot this year,

mentally , physically and emotionally .

I wasn't always there for you when you needed me .

I broke that promise .

I'm deeply and sincerely sorry .

It was never my intention to ignore or spend less time with you .

I adore you actually ,

you've always been a great listener to me .

Your opinions always calms me down and helped with my decisions .

You've been a wonderful friend to me .

I'm sorry that I couldn't return the same favor to you.

Piece of advice .

Don't let others thoughts get to you .

Your opinions , routine , decisions and life are all in your hands and not someone else .

Keep that in mind .

Don't be upset and let someone else ruin your day .

Don't let other people control your life .

Your life is your own ,

not other's .

I love you so much !

Hyunmin .

My wicked , crazy , lunatic , hyperactive , smile , childish , mother-like best friend .

You've always been there for me when I'm vulnerable .

Your comforts ease me from my stressful life .

Your presence is important to me .

It somehow completes my day .

It would totally be different without you around .

I know my sentences are cheessy but hey ,

I love you !

Hahah!

You're the first person I would search for every time I'm down .

I Thank you from the depth of my heart for being patient while I cried on your shoulder .

I can't express how grateful I am towards Allah S.W.T for giving me a marvelous friend .

I love you soo much ! :*

And to you ,

Thank You for coming into my life .

I hope all of us , this friendship will stay strong until the end !

GOODBYE 2013 ,

WELCOME 2014 .

HAPPY NEW YEAR !