I'm sorry

Assalamualaikum and Annyeonghaseyo.

Currently I'm emotionally unstable.

I keep having this annoyance and irritation sort of feeling,

and it hurts my chest and makes me want to yell if something was did wrongly,

even if it's just a small matter.

I once have this one friend I knew from my Uni life,

we were inseparable for four semesters,

everywhere we go, 

we're seen together,

we were so close with each other that people would ask us if one of us were not there,

we were close that we shared our darkest secret together,

but,

it all washed away as the fifth semester started,

I admit,

it was majorly my fault,

I started drifting away from her from a reason that is to people,

so foolish.

I apologised,

but things was never the same,

it will never ever be the same again.

What was I kidding,

who would trust a person like me after all that, right?

Until this day,

I feel guilty and sorry for my actions,

because of it,

I lost a very precious person to me,

now turned into a stranger.

I know she hates my guts now,

I can feel it from the way she talks and writes,

my friend is gone,

and I can bet she doesn't have any plan on returning,

never.