Im Heejin's Diary

Assalamualaikum and Annyeonghaseyo. Currently I'm emotionally unstable. I keep having this annoyance and irritation sort of feeling, and it hurts my chest and makes me want to yell if something was did wrongly, even if it's just a small matter. I once have this one friend I knew from my Uni life, we were inseparable for four semesters, everywhere we go,  we're seen together, we were so close with each other that people would ask us if one of us were not there, we were close that we shared our darkest secret together, but, it all washed away as the fifth semester started, I admit, it was majorly my fault, I started drifting away from her from a reason that is to people, so foolish. I apologised, but things was never the same, it will never ever be the same again. What was I kidding, who would trust a person like me after all that, right? Until this day, I feel guilty and sorry for my actions, because of it, ...

Assalamualaikum and Annyeonghaseyo. Feelings and emotions. As some people say it is a part of us as a human, some would say it is natural, bad or good. Some would say it is just your brain exaggerating. Some would say that it should not be taken seriously, Some would say it is nothing. Easy for them to say . Personally, good or bad emotions or feelings, the meaning and reasons behind it differs between people. Yes, Maybe the situation went through were similar, Maybe the words was the same, Maybe the people involved was the same, Maybe the time happened was the same, Maybe what went through the mind was similar, but nothing is ever exactly the same. What's unique about God's creation was the feeling and emotion felt by the certain person. We may have come from the same place, We may have come from the same time, We may have come from the person, We may have the same features, We may have ears, We...

Dear Diary , Assalamualaikum & Annyeonghaseyo . This entry was written weeks ago and I decided to post it today , hehehe . Time flew so fast when you enjoyed the moments . But , I don’t think I enjoyed all of them . Typing away from Penang which my dad and me came for work . Come to think of it , This would be my first entry for the year 2014 , right ? To start it of , Work has been on my tail the entire time . I’ve been so busy working that my meals and sleep are all messed up . I would eat late in the evening and sleep early in the morning . It’s hectic with this project . I just wish that it would end soon . Because I’m tired and so is my dad . Speaking of my dad , I felt pity of him . He has been missing his meals and sleep just like me but , Worse . He gets skinnier day by day . That worries both my mom and I . My mom nagged at him dozens of times but he is still persistent to finish this project . Sometimes makes me angry at ...

Dear Diary, Assalamualaikum & Annyeonghaseyo . It finally came to me to realize that I've been posting entries onto this blog for 3 years . I've started on the year of 2011 and now it is the last day of the 365 days of the year 2013 . As anyone would felt at the moment , time flew by so quickly without knowing . It felt like only yesterday that I was trying to adapt to my new status as a high school student . It felt like only yesterday I met my friends who became a huge part in my life. It felt like on yesterday my life as a kid ends . But now , I've came to an age where I was considered mature and wise enough to make my own decisions . Decisions which was once made by my parents. Decisions that was suitable for an adult to decide . Decisions that a kid's opinion was not utterly important . Decisions that involves people's feelings , trust , hope and life . Decisions that could either be a good or bad output . Decisions...

Dear Diary , Assalamualaikum & Annyeonghaseyo . If  I post this today , It is not the real date of the entry . Today is the 24 th of December of the year 2013 which is also the 2 nd day of my new job here at CAMART that my father works at . The reason behind this entry is because I suddenly got irritated . Why ? Because of the treatment that was given to me as a newbie . I know I am not in the position where I should be complaining or get irritated but I cannot help it . Not long ago , One of the employee ask me to help her go to the bookstore to fax some papers . I did it . As I arrived at the bookstore which is a few stores away . The scene after was the first that irritates me . The owner of the bookstore did not smiled at all at me . Well , I didn’t take it seriously and just did what I was suppose to do . After that , As she gave me the papers back , I said thank you to her but she did not even make any eye contact with ...

Dear Diary, Assalamualaikum & Annyeonghaseyo . Here I am typing away on my father's laptop's keyboard , in a hotel room located near Penang. The clock just strikes 12:20 ,midnight . 22 December of 2013 just started 20 minutes ago . I'm accompanied by EXO's Miracles of December . How the song affects the things that I'm about to type . It happened again . Wondering what I meant by that statement ? My heart aches suddenly , again. In my mind , I wonder if it is because of the fan fiction story that I just finished reading or was it something else ? It aches even more due to myself not knowing the real reason behind this heart ache . It is not the first time I felt this kind of feeling but, it is also not that often that I felt it . Right now , I just want this feeling to vanished . Why ? Because of this heart ache , I'm doubting myself in a lot of matters . Matters that I was not supposed to doubt i...

Dear Diary , Assalamualaikum & Annyeonghaseyo . From the month of August to the current month of November . Time flies so fast . I meant really fast that now ,I'm already studying for my last paper . Ekonomi Asas . I want to pour ,if possible , my heart out on today's post . I'm currently typing at a cyber cafe while waiting for my mother to finish her work . I also just got back from Axis , karaoke-ing with Omma , Myung , Lay , Putera , Along , Daya & Abang . We sang like we never sang before . The room practically boomed with loud music .  We fought to choose songs but we ended up singing all of the songs chosen my anonymous . Haha ! It was a bliss since it was my first time for this past 6 months . We sang various of songs . From Malay to English to Korean ! Omma , Lay ,Myung and I even danced to Infinite's Be Mine . It was a blast ! Before that , we went to a special class for EA . From 9-12 pm .  Th...